and it was great! i am 21 years and a day old now. it finally hit me i get to reach the age where i am considered an actual adult in the modern world of 2011. the time has flown by and i felt like a should have accomplished something but i really don't care that i didn't. i pretty much tried to enjoy my day and see what i can get out of it. i woke up extra early to wash my dirtay hair and get it nice for my biology class. since it is birthday week i'm in a good mood and i wanna dress accordingly. so my birthday theme this week is polka dots! classy! after i chose my clothes and did my hair which took forever and didn't really turn out the way i would hoped but looked decent. went with my hair and put on stellar makeup and got on my way to class. good news from prof tucker was that i did good on the test consider how super early i took it. i had to take it because and i am glad i got it out of my way before my trip to cali. which was a little heaven. we had once major fight which i don't even remember all i know is andrew knows how to hurt a girl but when he gets into it he really comes up with the same reasons to make me feel like crap but it doesnt really bother me cause i know i say some pretty horrendous things. so california was great and today was great. after class got my car issues done with JS. never thought she would call me back considering how long it took to call me. and before my 6pm class i tried to read all of chapter 8 but i got 2/3 of it read and took a nap. i probly did ok on the quiz but i need to do better. i feel like i dont try hard but i do it. my half ass needs to follow through! but after class i had fun and went to dinner at macaroni grill with jeffrey, sam, matt, and yumemi. the key girls i would like to have come had work, study, or no money. ahhh the life of a student. but the five of us had fun chatting it up about monsters existing, what kind of size and feel of penises they liked, tattoos and how and who look good in them, hair cuts, nutrition, and cleansing food. just a bunch of crazy stuff. and we colored all over on our paper table cloth. the mac grill was really dead but the company and food was delicious! yumemi got to try everyone's dinner. and we pretty much talked our heads off. jeff got me a cleansing cream for makeup and balloons. and sam gave me a gift from saudi arabia and flowers. such sweethearts. so my 21st birthday was a success!!

i love how random my thoughts are. school wise i feel like i'm not up to par what i feel is expected of myself. what can i say i have high standards. so far i have a 89 in Biology 101, made a 83 on my first English 102 paper, public speaking is a fun class but i do get nervous or i over think the topic too much. as much as i love school which i really don't complain about at all its just i don't feel like i'm putting my heart into it. but before this semester ends i'm gonna get what i want which are A's. I have been going to the gym 4 days a week. i have been making nonstop acquaintances. mainly guys because they approach me or i know them from someone in my class or through another friend. where are all my girls at? waaah. judy still is distant. nancy comes and goes. nong has work. and the new girls are just girls i have to see when the situation comes around. but now that i think about it. i really prefer hanging with guys with no emotional ties. ugh but that seems so bad on my part. a married girl whose husband is far away and has guy friends because i can't attract enough girl friends. at least i get along with everyone. that much i can say for myself. i really miss andrew. i have daydreams and fantasies mixing him in depending what i do through out the day and everything i do. i just want one class with him! ha only in my dreams. i'm gonna get abs for halloween. maybe going to memphis will ease my girl time companionship. but i do wonder if kendall can be a gracious host. i wonder. i can't sleep. maybe its all that working out or maybe i'm just restless all of a sudden. i just can't go to sleep without a reel of thoughts going in and out. once my grades get up i think i can do everything else without problems. wish myself luck. i'm just gonna do what i do.